Journals

I think keeping journals is a really good idea. They can be useful for so many reasons. I have one; I don't write in it every single day, I don't think its necessary to write in everyday either.

I use my journal to write about what I've been doing lately and I include things from those days, like movie tickets or concert wristbands. I also include my thoughts on certain topics that are going on; sometimes I even draw in them too. It's cool to look back on what was written. It's like a book full of your personal memories and feelings.

Journals are fun because you can see how much you've changed over time too. Sometimes I even find myself laughing at something I wrote. They are a way to learn from mistakes and to reflect back on life. It can also be a good reminder on how you became who you are today.

I like to write, but that doesn't mean I'm good at it (you can probably tell). I think that writing in a journal can really show who you are not just by the content that is written but the way it's written. Whether that's the style of writing or just writing upside down because you can and it's yours and it's private.

The Blues

It's one of those night where I just feel like crying. I think most people have nights like this, but they usually have a reason. I have no reason. I have no idea why I feel down and just want to cry. Today was a normal day, nothing bad or unusual happened; I feel like my tolerance of people wasn't as good, but everything was still fine.

I feel like getting away and escaping from everything. Not that there's really anything to escape from... It was pretty stressful the last couple of weeks, but things are fine now. Maybe I just need a break from life. I don't know.

You know I've realized that we can never be happy all the time. Even if everything is going right.

Crying is good. Usually there's a reason for it, big or small, but it's nice because it releases those emotions. Although it doesn't physically fix any problem, it feels so nice to let it out and get all those feeling off your chest. Doesn't it?

Starry Eyed

So I've been thinking of starting another blog just for music, I'm not sure if I want to yet and that means I have to think of a new blog name which was hard enough the first time. Anyway, for now I'm just going to keep using this one.

So my school puts on free concerts every now and then and on Thursday Ellie Goulding came to play. I know probably 5 of her songs so not that many. I was front row at this concert and it was great! She is awesome live.

One of her songs is called "Starry Eyed" and I really like it.

It's so catchy and just fun to listen to. Ellie Goulding has so much energy on stage it just made the concert fun for everybody. Hope you guys enjoy this song. 

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We do so many things to make our life better because we're supposed to, but how much of it actually helps?

Uncertainties of Life

There are so many things I can write about, but I don't know how to go about it. All the topics that I want to write about connect to each other one way or another, but I know I can't write a post that will end up being 5 pages long. I guess what I'll end up doing is just writing about these different topics in different posts although there may end up being some overlap here and there.

Today I want to talk about.... I'm not really sure what to label it as... speaking of labels I'm going to write about those in a different post eventually. I'm going to write about life, taking risks, wanting things... my mind isn't the most organized....

I've been thinking lately about a lot of stuff. I know that's very vague of me to say, I just don't know how else to say it. I want to have a interesting, adventurous, exciting life; with so much more than just that. I want to make a difference and do something worth while. I want a life worth living. What's the point otherwise? I can't have everything that I want because they don't really go together. I want to travel the world and go on adventures, I want to have a family and have a normal life, I want to have adventure and to always do something new and exciting, and I want to do everything I can to the highest potential I'm capable of to achieve whatever I want. These things don't really go together to the point where I can have all of it. I guess in simple words I want to live life to the fullest. What's the point of not doing what I want? I may be happy, but that doesn't mean I'm fully satisfied. To be honest, it's just hard. It's hard to do everything we want or to live the way we want for multiple reasons; I think the main two are the risk and leaving what is comfortable.

It is hard to do something so risky because of the uncertainty of what could happen; the outcomes can be scary and it prevents us from doing things we want. This is part of why I don't do half of the things I want to do. I'm not comfortable because I don't know what's going to happen. It's hard to have an extraordinary life because leaving what is known is difficult. Having an extraordinary life can be a different image depending on what people want. For some it might just be having a family and kids and their dream job, but for others it  might be a lot more than that. I want all of it which is practically impossible. I need to make at least something happen. I don't want to life my life half way. Like I said, I'm happy with how it is now, I'm grateful to have what I have, I just know there's something more I can do and I don't want to regret not at least trying to do what I want. I think the main thing I want is adventure. Life is not a movie or a book, but I believe that we can still do what we want. It's partly society stopping us in a way. People stand by the rules and don't stand out, they do what the norms are. Heaven forbid someone risk it all and do something that's considered crazy. When I say this I'm still talking about making their dreams come true instead of having a 9 to5 job, creating the life they've dreamed of having but are to scared to take on.

I guess what I'm saying is that I want way more from life than what is reasonable. It's difficult for me to stick to one thing. I want it all. Some might say it's a good thing that I have goals and ideas of things I want to accomplish and what I want my life to be like, but I also can't decide what I want because I want too many things and it seems as if they just won't really work together. I don't know how to get everything I want and I know it will be hard just to get a piece of it. Taking risks and trying to get what I desire is the main part to from just being a life dream to actually making it happen. That's what I'm trying to work on for myself.

A Tune For You

So I also love music. There's not a day I don't have my music on. I listen to some of the mainstream artist and they're cool, but I also listen to a bunch of stuff nobody has ever heard before.

Today I thought that I would show you guys "The Sound" by Ariela Jacobs. She has a beautiful voice and I definitely think you guys should listen to it, at least once. I don't think it's something everyone would like but it's catchy and sweet so why not see if you like it right?

Click here to watch it to YouTube :)

If you listen to awesome music let me know! I love finding new stuff to listen to, or let me know what kind of music you like and I might have a suggestion for you.

Have a nice night!

Race Still Makes a Difference

So my friends and I were talking about race today. It comes up. Being a college student means I spend most of my time on campus completely surrounded by other human beings. The university I go to has a student population where the majority are Caucasian. I was with two of my friends, one is Caucasian and one is African American. We talked about how, although there is basically every racial group on campus, we are surrounded by white people. We didn't say that was a bad thing or a good thing, its just a thing.

Although many people like to believe that race doesn't matter anymore, it still does. Growing up I was mainly around people of my own race. I did not think any less of people who were different than me and I didn't really feel uncomfortable around them either. Some people feel more comfortable around people that are from the same racial demographic. It gives them a feeling that they have someone they can relate to and talk to about things they might have in common. Just a little example of what I mean by this can be hair. My friend and I are both blond but the older we get the darker it gets and soon we will just be considered brunettes. We both hate the fact that our hair isn't as blond as it used to be and we complain about it sometimes. My other friend who is African American obviously doesn't have the same hair as me. She doesn't get why I'm upset about losing my blond hair, but then again I don't fully understand all the struggles she has with her hair either. This is just one example of how it is easy to talk to people of your own racial group because there will be things you have in common.

This world is getting more diverse but some people still don't adjust well to change. We still have the racial stereotypes and negative/positive connotations about each group. Although most people recognize stereotypes as just stereotypes they still have an effect. A Caucasian person is less likely to be randomly questioned by the police, padded down at an airport, or followed around by security in a store than someone of a minority race. There are up's and down's to every racial group, but I'm not saying we should all pretend like we're colorblind. It's okay to have different races. It brings us diversity. I don't think it is right to see one as lesser than another though because what's the point? How did one race become better than another in the first place anyway?

So yeah. That's just me talking. These are just my thoughts and opinions. I'm not saying I'm right or wrong about anything. I would love to hear some other thoughts though so if you're reading this leave a comment if you would like. I hope you all had swell weekends!